I’m at work, I’m bored, so what do I do? MAKE A LIST OF ALLLLL THE THINGS I WANT!!! 

Actually, I’ve done something what my mum decrees as “incredibly rude” but… I’ve allocated birthday gifts in case people call up and ask what I want. She says it’s rude, and it might be, BUT… Say I want a perfume right? Well, say when people call mum to RSVP they say “What does Hannah want?” and she says “This particular perfume BLAH” to maybe four people. And all four of them go “Cool, I’ll get her that, she really wants it!”. And then they show up, having got me four versions of the same perfume. Frankly, I won’t mind. BUT… they would be disappointed. Well, at least if I got someone a gift, and found out someone else had given them the same thing *I* would be extremely disappointed. Like I’d failed them, or something. I’d be bummed. SO  *JUST IN CASE* they ask (and I don’t care if I get nothing. It’s a JUST IN CASE THEY ASK) I’ve made a list of “If Nana asks what I want, say I want this; if John and Robyn ask, say I want this” etc…. Maybe I’m a bad person. But… It makes sense to me. It’s something I wish people would do for me. I spend the whole time freaking that I’ve got them something someone else got them. 

…ANYWAY. Because I’m bored :P

Wish list:

• Money! I know people hate to give it (I don’t! It’s easy :P) but… money helps me do things like… buy my medication, pay for doctors/psychs, etc. 
• Stockings! - by We Love Colours.
  Ankle Length tights OR Ankle Length Leggings in Reds, blues, purples, etc. For exercising in winter :D Large, or X-Large. 
  Solid Colour Tights OR Solid Colour Microfiber Tights  in reds, WHITE, black, green, purple, blues, etc. I just want loads of colours! (But REALLY NEED white). Large of course. YAY!! Pretty tights!!!
• A new coat!
  Lili Double Breasted Coat in White/Cream/etc from Forever New
  Lili Double Breasted Coat in PRETTY BLUEEEE
  Eva Peacoat in BLUE
• 21st gear, like glasses, etc
• Moscato, Bacardi (white rumes) etc. 
• Make up brushes

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Once again… HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!! <3 Now, I just wanna comment on these things :P

169: [RE: Love at First Sight] I don’t not believe in it but like idk, the idea of it doesn’t appeal to me.

Interesting concept. See… When I first saw Tom, I thought he was the SEXIEST man ever. I wanted to bone him SO much. I was dumbstruck, couldn’t speak to him for like… weeks, after meeting him. I didn’t LOVE him until into our relationship. But I was intensely attracted to him. So… I guess that’s lust at first sight, that grew into love. In a way though, it FEELS like I loved him straight away, when it really wasn’t. …I’m trying to make a point, but I have lost it between sips of coffee. 

112:  I think that it’s probably awesome but people have too much sex these days.  I still like the idea of only having sex with one person for your whole life, like it was meant to be.  I could write a whole essay on sex and how shitty it’s turned into these days.  

From someone who has had sex with more than one person… I hate it. If I could go back to earlier me and say “Wait it out, Han. The right one is coming. Save it. KEEP THEM PANTS ON” I would. Because honestly, it makes me kind of sad that… I didn’t save it for Tom/the person I want to be with forever. I never considered waiting until marriage. But I sure wish I’d waited until I was in a happy and stable relationship. Because I can’t change my actions, I like to tell everyone that I regret it, and that I wish I’d waited, so maybe they’ll learn from my mistakes :P It took me about 19 years to realise it, but sex is special. And sex with someone you love, and want to be with forever, well, that’s beyond words :)